tears, life, happy ❄

salam

 so lately have been watching lotsa inspirational videos mostly about teens probs. always gets me teary eyed when i watched them because it felt like seeing me at their place. bhahaha. nobody's perfect. i may look tough on the outside but i do have a soft spot in me, call me a tsundere if you must. most of the tough girls are like that really, but the guys just don't want to deal with us. why? well because they want girls that they need to protect or care for. pfft! what do you think we are, fine china? *sorry chris brown* but seriously come on man, this is a dog eat dog world. us girls need to have some backbone in our life to survive. not meant to condemn anyone  by the way, us girls are the girls that're really worth the fighting for! if you look down on us for choosing guys but hey remember that the best apples are at the top, if you want us so much try to find a ladder won't you? plus you guys also choose us and PLEASE don't deny it instead deal with it! 

lotsa teens nowadays don't have any way to channel all their depression, anger and such, thus relieving it with self harm, alcohol and drugs plus relationships. i understand that as well because i also had ALMOST self harmed myself to be frank, but then i thought to myself that i dont want to scar my skin *i know a lil bit girlish of me* it's harder since most of our parents dont really give a damn about what we feel or do, thus having no one trustful to rely onto. the result? self harm, alcohol and drugs. some are better since they go towards the Almighty Him but most just dont, thinking that no one cares even a teensy weensy about them. well fyi, there are people who do care. many people would grieved if we.....you know commit suicide or such. though parents may close their eyes about us but they really really do care, taking care of us in the background, always making us feel at home, scolding us for every stupid thing we'd done that we may think it was right at that time. family is always there through thick and thin since blood is thicker than water. then there're friends. those people that always do stupid things with you, those people that will always laugh at the stupid jokes you said, just those people. and of course there will always always always be Him. He will never ever leave us, after all he'd PROMISED :) tyvm!