tis is true thy am tired ;)

salam

i dont know why

but now i know

why i like to condemn myself

at first

i thought it was back in smakl

i had some probs back then

but as new school year just entered

i realized

it started at home

u wanna know sumthing

i've never felt the joy

of having to achieve sumthing

it's always for someone else

its sad really

to be controlled like a puppet

without even realizing it

all this time

i didnt have a chance to speak out

ever since

i became a passive type of person

always saving up my thought

never tried new things

unless told to

everything was like

i dont know 

mybe its only me who felt this

and it may not be actually true

but i still feel hurt

i've never been praised at

ever

i dont know

mybe its how malays brought up their family

kids just need to follow whatever their parents told to

never asking why or why not

barely have the opportunity to suggest

just follow

thats why its like this

i dont know

i really just dont know

what am i suppose to do?

who could guide me?

how'll my future be?

i just dont know

sorry for badmouthing anyone 

just in case

but i kept this feelings 

for quite sometime already

and i dont know to whom should i tell to

thank you

salam